Things have been tough the past few weeks. I miss my kid, who has been back in the States for a little over a month now. I’ve been missing friends in the States on a level I haven’t felt since being here. Finances have been tighter than they have been in a long time. Our car is back in the shop, to fix the newly rebuilt motor, for the fourth time in as many months. It’s just been a huge sea of “one thing after another”, and sometimes it feels like it’s never ending, accompanied by the doubts of “Did we really sign up for this?”.
But still, I’m thankful. Not gonna lie, it’s hard to be. Really hard. I won’t sit here and say, “Oh, it’s just so EASY knowing God’s in control! No worries! LOL!” Because, well, lying is a sin. I’m thankful that our daughter is “back” in a emotional state that we haven’t seen for a long time, back in her comfort zone. I’m thankful that I have friends in the States to miss, and for all the wonderful friendships we have made here. Friendships that are not based on “location” out of necessity, but friendships that I am certain would have budded even if we lived in the same town in the USA, in a sea of people “like us”. We have money to buy groceries this week. I’m not sure what will happen next week, but God has never left us hungry. Most people here have never owned a car, and never will. The fact that we own one at all is a blessing. We are also blessed with cheap, fairly convenient public transportation, that allows us to soak up the language and culture for a bit, instead of traveling around in our bubble of security, complete with tinted windows.
We are blessed to be living where God has called us. When so many say, “I wish I could do…”, we can say, “We’re doing it”. And while there are days when it’s easy to just throw up your hands, say, “I wanna go home!”, the reality is, we are home. There are problems, inconveniences, and struggles no matter where you live. There’s no escape just by fleeing to what’s familiar. I think problems are magnified when you are living outside your culture and comfort zone, but they exist everywhere, and we tend to forget that there’s no Utopia, no magic formula to beating life. All we can do is lean on the Lord, press into Him, and be so so thankful that He welcomes us.
“Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.” – 1 Thessalonians 5:18 NLT